I am doing this.
I find it very fulfilling.
This covers a multitude of avenues. Friendship, nurturing, love, I put it out there as best I can if I am able to do so when the feeling strikes. It doesn’t always happen conveniently, and I miss opportunities. There are enough times when everything converges that I still feel like this is what I should be doing.
I married Sara because I was ready for a mate, I was ready to allow myself to need someone. That was the toughest decision I ever made in my life. The thing is, though, after doing this everything seems to be falling into place. I didn’t know I wasn’t happy before…I had never felt normal before…but with the happiness I now have since Sara came into my world is very new to me.
I enjoy sharing happiness with others, and I am getting better at it.
This doesn’t mean I am up all the time, far from it…but the peaks and valleys aren’t as extreme as they once were.
I had a few heart to heart conversations this weekend…very energizing. I know I have to be careful not to do too much at once, and I would like to make my skill set something I can pass on to others.
Money…I sort of need this…it greases the wheels. I have begun my education in this area, I hope to know as much about money as I do about cars or computers.
I was so bloody tired when I came home today…there was a bit of excitement at work, and not the good kind. For a while, it sent my thoughts in a very wrong direction. So I mindlessly distracted myself for a while, then took in some very good information. I am feeling much more inspired now.
This doesn’t mean I am going to post a very long blog, though…but better than the last few days. I have mentioned my particular source of good ideas enough. I will spare you from that for now. Unless inspiration leads me in that direction again.
I shall sleep well tonight, I hope you do too.